Yes, of course I lied on my own blog about certain people whose names I didn't even mention. I'm sure someone told certain individual about the existence of this blog, which I frankly don't care. But it wasn't that someone's business in the first place so like WTF?
Anyway, of course, the stuff I wrote were all LIES - but only to her and the minions. Why?
Here's why.
Cause you only listen to your "PRECIOUS" little ones' side of the story.
What, you think they'd admit that they tried to control other people and stuff? You think one of them would admit that she is actually capable of bad-mouthing people behind their backs and make fun of them? You think that she would admit that she tried to get control of certain guys - for who knows what reason - by reverse psychology trick?
OF COURSE NOT! You think they're perfect little angels. BAH, MY ASS!!! I know that the big idiot is far from it.
Of course it's only their stories you would listen. After all, they are so precious to you that you're blinded by their mistakes to even care about THE TRUTH. Even if they're the ones in the wrong, they're never wrong in your eyes.
They're only humans. Might not even be all humans as one of them is really evil but can do a pretty darn good job to disguise it.
So no, they really are not perfect. Neither are you, neither am I.
I make mistakes, I sin, I do bad things, yes, cuz I'm human and I'm not afraid to admit it. Unlike certain individual who acts so goody goody in front of the parents but behind is totally the opposite.
Sheesh seriously, you think I would make all that shit up? For what? You think I have so much free time to create such LIES???? I don't gain anything from that. Use your BRAIN!
I don't make shit up, I VENT. And I vent cuz I know what really happened, not because I BLOODY assumed what happened!!
FUDGE!
Next time get your sources from both sides then you can say that I LIED if I really did. Otherwise, keep it shut.
And no our relationship is not based on lies. He tells me the truth, and I was also there when one of the things I mentioned previously happened.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Just read.
Just to straight a few things out.
Just now I had a talk with a friend about certain things, which are mentioned in one of my previous entries. I won't go into details, because as I said there and then, case closed, and I don't want to talk about it anymore in the future.
So if anyone at all comes up to me and starts talking about it, you will either be:
a) ignored, or
b) told off.
And that's that.
By the way, I do tend to get defensive over my loved ones, so that's why when I know my family or close friends get unfair treatments - or bullied, or whatever done to them is displeasing - by other people (especially people that I already dislike in the first place), I could turn into this mean tactless scary bitch who's not afraid to bite their heads off, and I could do anything to defend them. Just about anything.
When it concerns me, I don't care as much, to be honest. Once or twice I can still handle it, I usually just don't care and ignore the pest, but when you do it more often and push me to my limits, or when it concerns my loved ones, you'll see the side of me that only comes out when I'm overly provoked. And yes, it's the side of me that not a lot of people get to see because it comes out very rarely. But when it does, I assure you that you'll regret ever messing with me and/or my loved ones.
I am what I am. You are what you are. That's just the way it is.
If you think that I'm actually concerned about what other people think of me, well, you're only partially correct. I don't care that much - I care to some extent, sure. But even then, I only care about the opinions of the people that I do care about, so if I don't care about persons A, B and C, I sure as heck won't care about what they think of me. They can think the worst of me, they can label me a bitch, or whatever negative label they'd like - I don't give a flying rat's ass.
Of all the people I know, I love some of you, I like some of you, some I outwardly dislike, some I love to hate. Some I'm just neutral about. I know it's the same with you. You can't love everybody, and I mean everybody. You can't possibly not dislike anybody at all. You're not Jesus.
I could put up a front and pretend that I love all of you, I could pretend to be friendly with everybody, but I wouldnt. I can't be bothered to do so and also because I don't like being hypocritical. If I don't like you, you'll know. I won't even pretend to be nice to you. If you think I'm a hypocrite (in this context anyway, other minor things like telling my friends not to eat junk food cuz it's unhealthy and stuff, and yet I myself still do - then I am guilty as charged =P), well that means you don't know me well enough. =) No offense. But my family and all my close friends know that when I dislike people, I don't hide it, I don't even try to do so.
If I had acted nice to some people that I now outwardly dislike, that's purely because at the time I was being nice to them, I thought they were alright and I had nothing against them. At that time, those people were not in the 'outwardly disliked' or 'love to hate them' circle. Most likely, at that time, they just happened to be in the 'neutral' circle. But as unavoidable as it is, people do change and things do change. So some of those in 'neutral' could either go up to 'like them' or 'love them' circle, or totally plummet straight into the 'love to hate them' circle. =) Some people constantly change circles, some change and stay where they are now, while some just stay totally stagnant from the first time they entered those certain circles. This is how it works for me.
Enough for now. More may be added later.
Just now I had a talk with a friend about certain things, which are mentioned in one of my previous entries. I won't go into details, because as I said there and then, case closed, and I don't want to talk about it anymore in the future.
So if anyone at all comes up to me and starts talking about it, you will either be:
a) ignored, or
b) told off.
And that's that.
By the way, I do tend to get defensive over my loved ones, so that's why when I know my family or close friends get unfair treatments - or bullied, or whatever done to them is displeasing - by other people (especially people that I already dislike in the first place), I could turn into this mean tactless scary bitch who's not afraid to bite their heads off, and I could do anything to defend them. Just about anything.
When it concerns me, I don't care as much, to be honest. Once or twice I can still handle it, I usually just don't care and ignore the pest, but when you do it more often and push me to my limits, or when it concerns my loved ones, you'll see the side of me that only comes out when I'm overly provoked. And yes, it's the side of me that not a lot of people get to see because it comes out very rarely. But when it does, I assure you that you'll regret ever messing with me and/or my loved ones.
I am what I am. You are what you are. That's just the way it is.
If you think that I'm actually concerned about what other people think of me, well, you're only partially correct. I don't care that much - I care to some extent, sure. But even then, I only care about the opinions of the people that I do care about, so if I don't care about persons A, B and C, I sure as heck won't care about what they think of me. They can think the worst of me, they can label me a bitch, or whatever negative label they'd like - I don't give a flying rat's ass.
Of all the people I know, I love some of you, I like some of you, some I outwardly dislike, some I love to hate. Some I'm just neutral about. I know it's the same with you. You can't love everybody, and I mean everybody. You can't possibly not dislike anybody at all. You're not Jesus.
I could put up a front and pretend that I love all of you, I could pretend to be friendly with everybody, but I wouldnt. I can't be bothered to do so and also because I don't like being hypocritical. If I don't like you, you'll know. I won't even pretend to be nice to you. If you think I'm a hypocrite (in this context anyway, other minor things like telling my friends not to eat junk food cuz it's unhealthy and stuff, and yet I myself still do - then I am guilty as charged =P), well that means you don't know me well enough. =) No offense. But my family and all my close friends know that when I dislike people, I don't hide it, I don't even try to do so.
If I had acted nice to some people that I now outwardly dislike, that's purely because at the time I was being nice to them, I thought they were alright and I had nothing against them. At that time, those people were not in the 'outwardly disliked' or 'love to hate them' circle. Most likely, at that time, they just happened to be in the 'neutral' circle. But as unavoidable as it is, people do change and things do change. So some of those in 'neutral' could either go up to 'like them' or 'love them' circle, or totally plummet straight into the 'love to hate them' circle. =) Some people constantly change circles, some change and stay where they are now, while some just stay totally stagnant from the first time they entered those certain circles. This is how it works for me.
Enough for now. More may be added later.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
OI! STOP PESTERING PEOPLE!!
If you want to know anything about me or my boyfriend, why don't you just ask me or him in person? Is it that you don't have the guts to talk to us after the untrue horrible things you spread about him and me? Is it because you know that we know your true colors? Oh yes, trust me, we do.
There's no need asking my friends about us, or even calling them up just for the sake of asking about us. You're really that pathetic huh, having no life hence you have to meddle with other people's life?
There's no need asking my friends about our whereabouts when you don't see us on Sunday. It's not like you ever talk to us since you're such a coward anyway. Not that we want to have anything to do with you.
What kind of counselor talk about their clients to other people eh? A horrible one. What kind of counselor puts down the clients instead of supporting and helping them? Instead of consoling them you crush their confidence. Only evil and wicked people do so (yes I'm talking about you, you evil woman!). Not to mention the lies you spread to people.
I pity the people who have yet to see your true colors. I'm glad I trusted my feelings when I first met you. Fake, hypocrite, big mouth. Now that I know the real you, it's even worse than my first impressions. And I'm so glad a lot of people are finally realizing what you really are.
And by the way, I always knew that time when you approached me and two other guys who were my close friends, it was never because of the youth talking and stuff, it was all you. You just wanted to protect yourself and put the 'blame' on other innocent people. You just wanted to stick your ugly nose in other people's life.
So now what, now that you know I'm with my boyfriend, you're gonna try and 'counsel' us huh? Come and talk to us, I dare you.
I don't like wasting my time on useless worthless people like you, but I have to stand up for my friends. It was not nice that you keep asking a friend of mine for information about us when he doesn't know anything. Leave him alone. He doesn't have attitude problems, YOU do.
You watch what you say to people, you watch what you do to my friends.
There's no need asking my friends about us, or even calling them up just for the sake of asking about us. You're really that pathetic huh, having no life hence you have to meddle with other people's life?
There's no need asking my friends about our whereabouts when you don't see us on Sunday. It's not like you ever talk to us since you're such a coward anyway. Not that we want to have anything to do with you.
What kind of counselor talk about their clients to other people eh? A horrible one. What kind of counselor puts down the clients instead of supporting and helping them? Instead of consoling them you crush their confidence. Only evil and wicked people do so (yes I'm talking about you, you evil woman!). Not to mention the lies you spread to people.
I pity the people who have yet to see your true colors. I'm glad I trusted my feelings when I first met you. Fake, hypocrite, big mouth. Now that I know the real you, it's even worse than my first impressions. And I'm so glad a lot of people are finally realizing what you really are.
And by the way, I always knew that time when you approached me and two other guys who were my close friends, it was never because of the youth talking and stuff, it was all you. You just wanted to protect yourself and put the 'blame' on other innocent people. You just wanted to stick your ugly nose in other people's life.
So now what, now that you know I'm with my boyfriend, you're gonna try and 'counsel' us huh? Come and talk to us, I dare you.
I don't like wasting my time on useless worthless people like you, but I have to stand up for my friends. It was not nice that you keep asking a friend of mine for information about us when he doesn't know anything. Leave him alone. He doesn't have attitude problems, YOU do.
You watch what you say to people, you watch what you do to my friends.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
dessert-ing
Who doesn't love Haagen Dazs? :P I know I love 'em haha. Bought a couple of pints the other day, Strawberry and Coffee. And still have some of the Cold Stone Strawberry and Mocca left! :D
Anyway. Just chilling. Raining outside. Will probably crawl under blanket soon and sleep. This morning I did plan to wake up early, which I did, but not in a pleasant way. Cuz the neighbor kid kept crying like mad, and my room is upstairs and facing outside, so I could hear. Was so annoyed. Oh well :P it's all good. But now I feel quite sleepy. Plus I actually jogged today. Must be why I feel so tired and drowsy -_-"
Off now. Zzzz.....
Anyway. Just chilling. Raining outside. Will probably crawl under blanket soon and sleep. This morning I did plan to wake up early, which I did, but not in a pleasant way. Cuz the neighbor kid kept crying like mad, and my room is upstairs and facing outside, so I could hear. Was so annoyed. Oh well :P it's all good. But now I feel quite sleepy. Plus I actually jogged today. Must be why I feel so tired and drowsy -_-"
Off now. Zzzz.....
Monday, June 2, 2008
I . HAVE . HAD . ENOUGH
"Do you hate anybody?"
Hate is a strong word. But if I were to answer that question honestly, I think I might have to say yes. Or at least, a strong and violent sense of dislike.
Anyway. The following are addressed to a few people.
Any of you who wants to contact somebody (who is my boyfriend) but cannot, then ends up trying to contact me or some other friend, or even DESPERATE enough to call his house and ask for his number, GET LOST!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. There's a million different reason why people don't pick up their phones (they could be in the shower, or driving, or eating, or in the middle of something, or in this case, they're avoiding you, for good reasons), and if you try to get to them from other people, not only will you get the same result, those other people get very annoyed. I'm not the only one who feels this way.
Firstly, to Ms. Control Freak, who's also very self-righteous and a hypocrite, and is disliked by a lot of people contrary to her belief. And I mean, really, a lot.
You have no respect for me, and you act normal and stuff in front of me but behind me you say things. Say it to my face if you have got the guts! I would say to your face except that just the sight of you makes me sick. Yes, it's that repulsive. So unless you come up to me first I won't have anything to do with you.
Oh another thing, whatever you want to say to him, you can say it in front of me because he will tell me anyway. So there's no need to want to have lunch with him in 'private', and being sarcastic about 'if girlfriend says cannot then cannot, then tell me' stuff. Who do you think you are? You're nobody, you're nothing. Just so you know, if he wanted to go, he would've gone, because I never forbid him from doing anything or seeing anyone (yea even annoying and evil people like you), he's free to do his own will. But the fact is he didn't want to go nor will he ever want to go with you, so hey, why don't you just accept that fact? No need to sulk and bad-mouth people.
I know what you're really like, I don't like people like you. I never did like you from the first time I met you because my feeling told me you were rotten and a fake and a hypocrite and self-righteous. Well, I was right wasn't I? *smiles*
Secondly, to the selfish little girl who is turning into another Ms. Control Freak *shudders*, who's also a backstabber.
You have no rights meddling with our business - whatever he does and whatever I do, it's our business. You have no rights to tell him to not have anything to do with me, you're not his anybody. And you have no rights telling him that he's ruining his life because he's with me, because, really, what do you know about us at all?
And to say those things about me behind my back to him, while in front of me you act totally different. I wasn't aware that you were taught to stab people in the back by your parents or whoever has big influence on you, but then I should've known from the things they say to and about certain other people, and what they've done. *rolls eyes*
Who do you think you are to force your childish requests on him? Did you actually really think he would listen to you before he listened to other people he trusts and respects more? *scoffs* Obviously not, especially since your requests were beyond imbecile and totally unreasonable. You were just jealous because he pours all his attention onto me. You were selfish because you wanted his attention but you weren't getting any, and so you got bitter and angry with him and me. Well, I didn't care for that, but you saw how it turned out didn't you? Instead of having him back as a friend/brother, you lost him. And I didn't even have anything to do with it, so before you start pointing your finger at me or him, hey, GROW UP, little girl, and look at yourself in the mirror. Well, hopefully the mirror won't break into a million pieces though.
Thirdly, to some big fat ugly loser *smirks*
Last year when I was missing from church, it was not because I was "dating some guy", or whatever rumors you spread. I know you know the real reason I was gone. And you had the nerve to say that the reason I came back to church was not because of God but because I wanted to see someone there. Just so you know, I wasn't even close to that someone that time, I wasn't even talking to him. I know you know this stuff, yet you tell Mr. D those untrue things. To this day I know not of your intentions. But I suppose it could be because you're single and the fact that you receive no attention from the opposite gender in romantic ways, hence you're bitter and cannot accept the fact that other people DO date, and you're unhappy with happy couples. That's why every time you see couples you say negative things to or about them. I know cause I've heard from other people who have had the same experience from you, and I know they wouldn't lie to me. Well, if you cannot get any guys to like you, accept that fact, or do something to fix yourself! Otherwise you'll spend the rest of your life bitter and unhappy and you'll find yourself trying to sabotage one relationship after another, which will probably never work anyway. Sad right?
*smiles sweetly*
That's all for now. I don't care if you get offended, I don't care if you're angry with me, I don't give a flying F. And like I said, if you have got the guts, come to me and say the things you wanna say to my face, otherwise I really don't want to have anything to do with people like you, total eeewwwss and LBR - Losers Beyond Repair. Or, Least Brained Rot according to my boyfriend. Hahah.
Hate is a strong word. But if I were to answer that question honestly, I think I might have to say yes. Or at least, a strong and violent sense of dislike.
Anyway. The following are addressed to a few people.
Any of you who wants to contact somebody (who is my boyfriend) but cannot, then ends up trying to contact me or some other friend, or even DESPERATE enough to call his house and ask for his number, GET LOST!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. There's a million different reason why people don't pick up their phones (they could be in the shower, or driving, or eating, or in the middle of something, or in this case, they're avoiding you, for good reasons), and if you try to get to them from other people, not only will you get the same result, those other people get very annoyed. I'm not the only one who feels this way.
Firstly, to Ms. Control Freak, who's also very self-righteous and a hypocrite, and is disliked by a lot of people contrary to her belief. And I mean, really, a lot.
You have no respect for me, and you act normal and stuff in front of me but behind me you say things. Say it to my face if you have got the guts! I would say to your face except that just the sight of you makes me sick. Yes, it's that repulsive. So unless you come up to me first I won't have anything to do with you.
Oh another thing, whatever you want to say to him, you can say it in front of me because he will tell me anyway. So there's no need to want to have lunch with him in 'private', and being sarcastic about 'if girlfriend says cannot then cannot, then tell me' stuff. Who do you think you are? You're nobody, you're nothing. Just so you know, if he wanted to go, he would've gone, because I never forbid him from doing anything or seeing anyone (yea even annoying and evil people like you), he's free to do his own will. But the fact is he didn't want to go nor will he ever want to go with you, so hey, why don't you just accept that fact? No need to sulk and bad-mouth people.
I know what you're really like, I don't like people like you. I never did like you from the first time I met you because my feeling told me you were rotten and a fake and a hypocrite and self-righteous. Well, I was right wasn't I? *smiles*
Secondly, to the selfish little girl who is turning into another Ms. Control Freak *shudders*, who's also a backstabber.
You have no rights meddling with our business - whatever he does and whatever I do, it's our business. You have no rights to tell him to not have anything to do with me, you're not his anybody. And you have no rights telling him that he's ruining his life because he's with me, because, really, what do you know about us at all?
And to say those things about me behind my back to him, while in front of me you act totally different. I wasn't aware that you were taught to stab people in the back by your parents or whoever has big influence on you, but then I should've known from the things they say to and about certain other people, and what they've done. *rolls eyes*
Who do you think you are to force your childish requests on him? Did you actually really think he would listen to you before he listened to other people he trusts and respects more? *scoffs* Obviously not, especially since your requests were beyond imbecile and totally unreasonable. You were just jealous because he pours all his attention onto me. You were selfish because you wanted his attention but you weren't getting any, and so you got bitter and angry with him and me. Well, I didn't care for that, but you saw how it turned out didn't you? Instead of having him back as a friend/brother, you lost him. And I didn't even have anything to do with it, so before you start pointing your finger at me or him, hey, GROW UP, little girl, and look at yourself in the mirror. Well, hopefully the mirror won't break into a million pieces though.
Thirdly, to some big fat ugly loser *smirks*
Last year when I was missing from church, it was not because I was "dating some guy", or whatever rumors you spread. I know you know the real reason I was gone. And you had the nerve to say that the reason I came back to church was not because of God but because I wanted to see someone there. Just so you know, I wasn't even close to that someone that time, I wasn't even talking to him. I know you know this stuff, yet you tell Mr. D those untrue things. To this day I know not of your intentions. But I suppose it could be because you're single and the fact that you receive no attention from the opposite gender in romantic ways, hence you're bitter and cannot accept the fact that other people DO date, and you're unhappy with happy couples. That's why every time you see couples you say negative things to or about them. I know cause I've heard from other people who have had the same experience from you, and I know they wouldn't lie to me. Well, if you cannot get any guys to like you, accept that fact, or do something to fix yourself! Otherwise you'll spend the rest of your life bitter and unhappy and you'll find yourself trying to sabotage one relationship after another, which will probably never work anyway. Sad right?
*smiles sweetly*
That's all for now. I don't care if you get offended, I don't care if you're angry with me, I don't give a flying F. And like I said, if you have got the guts, come to me and say the things you wanna say to my face, otherwise I really don't want to have anything to do with people like you, total eeewwwss and LBR - Losers Beyond Repair. Or, Least Brained Rot according to my boyfriend. Hahah.
Friday, May 16, 2008
KL & Penang trip!
Exam week. Yay. I'm only looking forward to the end of it so I can go home :D
Been sick for the past 2 weeks. Headache, followed by diarrhea. Then cured, and headache came again, migraine. And now my tummy keeps growling, diarrhea again. Argh! It's not that I've been eating unhealthy food! Or maybe I have >.<
Anyway, was in KL and Penang last 2 weeks. My aunt was here with her son, and all my classes were done so I went along with them hehe. Went on shopping spree, eating spree. Hahah. In KL didn't do much other than mall-hopping, and shopping, just the usual. Spent about 3 days in KL then on to Penang, took the bus. We wanted to take the train, but all the tickets were sold out. Oh well. Anyway, we stayed in Penang for about 5 days, then back to KL for 2 more days. And then my aunt and cousin went back home while I had to go back to Malacca. Sob. Wish I could come along with them instead. Sigh.
In Penang went around the island, thanks to my friend who provided transport and acting as the tour guide. Which, he sucks at. Hahah peace man :P Ate the supposedly famous laksa and char koay tiaw (spl?) in Penang. I thought the laksa was okay... well uhm honestly, I didn't really like it. I guess it's just not my taste haha. But the CKT rocks! Though, it's bloody expensive for such a small portion. Ugh. Oh and then also had a lot of durians :D and went for lunch at Dragon-I @ Queensbay. Penang = me getting rounder >.< Oh I also tried the famous biskuit tambun (tau sar pneah). Love it :P
Went up Penang Hill, but no I didn't climb up. Took the train thingy haha. Went to Butterfly Farm, Island's Butt, Batu Feringghi (they have got tons of fake designer handbags, I almost died of dizziness and annoyance!), Lorong Kulit... Batu Ferringhi was very crowded. And as if fake designer bags wasn't enough to annoy me, I had to spot somebody selling fake M.A.C's !!!!! Crazy. But anyway, it was an interesting place haha.
Brought back quite a lot of food and snack from the trip. Yay! :P
Anyway, off now. Need to do a bit of studying... starting to feel guilty. Stupid guilty conscience! Haha.
Been sick for the past 2 weeks. Headache, followed by diarrhea. Then cured, and headache came again, migraine. And now my tummy keeps growling, diarrhea again. Argh! It's not that I've been eating unhealthy food! Or maybe I have >.<
Anyway, was in KL and Penang last 2 weeks. My aunt was here with her son, and all my classes were done so I went along with them hehe. Went on shopping spree, eating spree. Hahah. In KL didn't do much other than mall-hopping, and shopping, just the usual. Spent about 3 days in KL then on to Penang, took the bus. We wanted to take the train, but all the tickets were sold out. Oh well. Anyway, we stayed in Penang for about 5 days, then back to KL for 2 more days. And then my aunt and cousin went back home while I had to go back to Malacca. Sob. Wish I could come along with them instead. Sigh.
In Penang went around the island, thanks to my friend who provided transport and acting as the tour guide. Which, he sucks at. Hahah peace man :P Ate the supposedly famous laksa and char koay tiaw (spl?) in Penang. I thought the laksa was okay... well uhm honestly, I didn't really like it. I guess it's just not my taste haha. But the CKT rocks! Though, it's bloody expensive for such a small portion. Ugh. Oh and then also had a lot of durians :D and went for lunch at Dragon-I @ Queensbay. Penang = me getting rounder >.< Oh I also tried the famous biskuit tambun (tau sar pneah). Love it :P
Went up Penang Hill, but no I didn't climb up. Took the train thingy haha. Went to Butterfly Farm, Island's Butt, Batu Feringghi (they have got tons of fake designer handbags, I almost died of dizziness and annoyance!), Lorong Kulit... Batu Ferringhi was very crowded. And as if fake designer bags wasn't enough to annoy me, I had to spot somebody selling fake M.A.C's !!!!! Crazy. But anyway, it was an interesting place haha.
Brought back quite a lot of food and snack from the trip. Yay! :P
Anyway, off now. Need to do a bit of studying... starting to feel guilty. Stupid guilty conscience! Haha.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
bloody headache
Woke up this morning with a headache. Haha. Sigh.
Can't stop listening to Anberlin's "(The Symphony Of) Blasé". Love the song!
Anyway off now, gonna go talk to a friend then go out for dinner. Hungry!!
Can't stop listening to Anberlin's "(The Symphony Of) Blasé". Love the song!
Anyway off now, gonna go talk to a friend then go out for dinner. Hungry!!
solitude
Could you die from too much thinking? If so then I'm in great danger haha.
One of these days, seriously, I gotta stop obsessing so much. Not only does it drive me nuts, it makes me go all jutek, and then the people around me get scared of me and stuff. Haha.
But for now... let me be in my solitude. Let me wrestle with the thoughts and worries for a little while, and then let me say goodbye to them and leave em in Father's hands.
One of these days, seriously, I gotta stop obsessing so much. Not only does it drive me nuts, it makes me go all jutek, and then the people around me get scared of me and stuff. Haha.
But for now... let me be in my solitude. Let me wrestle with the thoughts and worries for a little while, and then let me say goodbye to them and leave em in Father's hands.
Friday, February 15, 2008
being sick is no fun!
So.. been having diarrhea, for almost 2 bloody weeks now. Nuts. Went to see doctor on Monday. But no good, haha, still sick. No improvement. So today I went to see another doctor. And he gave me injection on my butt. Hurts! :( I'm not scared of needles, mind you, I don't mind getting injections or getting my blood taken and stuff, but injections on butts - those, I hate!!! Hahah anyway. I hope it helps with my tummy problem!
Anyway.
Gonna try to nap for a while. My butt still hurts!
Anyway.
Gonna try to nap for a while. My butt still hurts!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
never yours, never will be
And she said,
"Know that I love you,
but I really can't stay...
Please forgive me..."
He looked into her eyes, pleading
She gave him a sad smile,
and a kiss on his cheek
"Goodbye,"
she touched his hand,
briefly
She turned away quietly,
silently wiping her tears,
as she whispered,
"Forget me, love..."
He couldn't find the words
to make her stay.
He couldn't stop her,
from walking out the door.
No, he couldn't.
She was never his,
she never will be.
"Know that I love you,
but I really can't stay...
Please forgive me..."
He looked into her eyes, pleading
She gave him a sad smile,
and a kiss on his cheek
"Goodbye,"
she touched his hand,
briefly
She turned away quietly,
silently wiping her tears,
as she whispered,
"Forget me, love..."
He couldn't find the words
to make her stay.
He couldn't stop her,
from walking out the door.
No, he couldn't.
She was never his,
she never will be.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I'll Understand
When that day comes,
and you decide to leave me,
I'll understand.
When you pull me aside,
and let me know that
you've stopped loving me,
I'll understand.
When you turn around and
walk away from me,
close the door behind you, cause
I'll shed a tear or two.
But all the same,
I'll understand.
For you were never mine,
neither was I yours...
So when the day,
that one fateful day
finally comes
for us to part ways
I'll understand.
====
Just a little something I wrote a while back.
and you decide to leave me,
I'll understand.
When you pull me aside,
and let me know that
you've stopped loving me,
I'll understand.
When you turn around and
walk away from me,
close the door behind you, cause
I'll shed a tear or two.
But all the same,
I'll understand.
For you were never mine,
neither was I yours...
So when the day,
that one fateful day
finally comes
for us to part ways
I'll understand.
====
Just a little something I wrote a while back.
can't sleep...
A lot of things running through my head. Well, what's new right?
It's just that... you know that feeling when you get stuck in the middle of something, and you can't really go to either side? Kinda like when you're standing on a long piece of wooden board or something, and you gotta balance yourself, otherwise you might fall and injure yourself.... and maybe others. Weird analogy, maybe, but hey I'm half asleep now, so let's not blame anyone hahaha.
Anyway.
Today... well, technically, yesterday... it was a bit blah. My stomach is still hurting! After one bloody week. Finally went to see doctor haha. Then went for dinner. Then practice. Then got a fone call from mom. About my niece, she's not well, had to go to hospital and stuff. That brought my mood down, and pissed me off for reasons I better not disclose here. Add to that the fact that the practice didn't go well. Whaddaya get? Moody me. Oh and yes, with my jutek face. Hahah. But everything ended quite well I'd say, considering what happened during the practice. Let's not go into details - it might get me all worked up again. =P
I'm actually starting to feel a bit drowsy. Shall rest soon. Just that I'm still talking to a couple of friends hehe. And I'm feeling a bit hungry! Argh.
Off now. Gonna continue reading this book a friend recommended, until my brain really can't digest anything then I'll sleep. Hahah.
It's just that... you know that feeling when you get stuck in the middle of something, and you can't really go to either side? Kinda like when you're standing on a long piece of wooden board or something, and you gotta balance yourself, otherwise you might fall and injure yourself.... and maybe others. Weird analogy, maybe, but hey I'm half asleep now, so let's not blame anyone hahaha.
Anyway.
Today... well, technically, yesterday... it was a bit blah. My stomach is still hurting! After one bloody week. Finally went to see doctor haha. Then went for dinner. Then practice. Then got a fone call from mom. About my niece, she's not well, had to go to hospital and stuff. That brought my mood down, and pissed me off for reasons I better not disclose here. Add to that the fact that the practice didn't go well. Whaddaya get? Moody me. Oh and yes, with my jutek face. Hahah. But everything ended quite well I'd say, considering what happened during the practice. Let's not go into details - it might get me all worked up again. =P
I'm actually starting to feel a bit drowsy. Shall rest soon. Just that I'm still talking to a couple of friends hehe. And I'm feeling a bit hungry! Argh.
Off now. Gonna continue reading this book a friend recommended, until my brain really can't digest anything then I'll sleep. Hahah.
Friday, February 8, 2008
The Poison
I'm the poison in your blood,
coursing through your veins,
pounding in your heart,
killing you slowly.
I'm the poison crawling
underneath your skin.
Feel the prickling sensation
as I go along.
I'm the poison in your eyes,
tainting your visions of the world,
blurring the line between truth and lies.
I'm the poison in your ears,
polluting what you hear,
blocking out the truth.
I'm the poison in your mouth,
tarnishing the words you say,
icing sugar covering the dagger.
I'm the poison in your soul,
murdering your guilty conscience.
I'm the poison in your heart,
taking away the warmth
and leaving it cold as steel.
I'm the poison in your mind,
corrupting your thoughts,
gnawing at your sanity.
I'm the poison inside you,
living in you,
taking your life away.
coursing through your veins,
pounding in your heart,
killing you slowly.
I'm the poison crawling
underneath your skin.
Feel the prickling sensation
as I go along.
I'm the poison in your eyes,
tainting your visions of the world,
blurring the line between truth and lies.
I'm the poison in your ears,
polluting what you hear,
blocking out the truth.
I'm the poison in your mouth,
tarnishing the words you say,
icing sugar covering the dagger.
I'm the poison in your soul,
murdering your guilty conscience.
I'm the poison in your heart,
taking away the warmth
and leaving it cold as steel.
I'm the poison in your mind,
corrupting your thoughts,
gnawing at your sanity.
I'm the poison inside you,
living in you,
taking your life away.
Another sleepless night :)
One of those nights when I have so many things running through my mind.
And I start thinking of one thing and one thing leads to another, and soon I become questioning a lot of things... and, well, hence the sleepless part. Hah.
I just realized today, when I was checking my ext HD, that I've lost the stuff I've written in the past. My poetries, my songs, my short stories. Hahah. I hope I have a back up somewhere, though it's highly unlikely. Oh well. All's lost. I remember I have hard copies of some of them. Somewhere. Darn. I actually kinda like some of the stuff I wrote! Oh well.
Hmm.
Wish some people would just stop saying certain things when in actuality what they do is the opposite of the things they say.
Seriously.
I am NOT blind. Neither are other people.
Sad, sad, sad.
And I start thinking of one thing and one thing leads to another, and soon I become questioning a lot of things... and, well, hence the sleepless part. Hah.
I just realized today, when I was checking my ext HD, that I've lost the stuff I've written in the past. My poetries, my songs, my short stories. Hahah. I hope I have a back up somewhere, though it's highly unlikely. Oh well. All's lost. I remember I have hard copies of some of them. Somewhere. Darn. I actually kinda like some of the stuff I wrote! Oh well.
Hmm.
Wish some people would just stop saying certain things when in actuality what they do is the opposite of the things they say.
Seriously.
I am NOT blind. Neither are other people.
Sad, sad, sad.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
2 days to SWITCHFOOT
That's right folks.
Saturday I'll be seeing Switchfoot, again! Hehehe.
Just bought the bus tickets, bought the earliest possible, 5:30 AM hahaha. Crazy right. And the Switchfoot tickets themselves should be getting them today. :D Just 3 of us going to the concert, but another friend is coming along to KL. So yay! :D Rame deh hehe.
Anyway. Still thinking whether I'm going to Incubus in Singapore on March 7th, or not. I really wanna go. The ticket costs about 300 bucks. But problem is where am I going to stay the night?? I have no relatives or friends in Singapore. Sad. Really wanna go though, it's Incubus! I so wanna see Brandon and Mike live! Aaahh!
But the Mosaic I'm about 95% going. Hehe.
Off now, gonna continue drowning myself in Switchfoot songs. Hahah. Love em love em!
Saturday I'll be seeing Switchfoot, again! Hehehe.
Just bought the bus tickets, bought the earliest possible, 5:30 AM hahaha. Crazy right. And the Switchfoot tickets themselves should be getting them today. :D Just 3 of us going to the concert, but another friend is coming along to KL. So yay! :D Rame deh hehe.
Anyway. Still thinking whether I'm going to Incubus in Singapore on March 7th, or not. I really wanna go. The ticket costs about 300 bucks. But problem is where am I going to stay the night?? I have no relatives or friends in Singapore. Sad. Really wanna go though, it's Incubus! I so wanna see Brandon and Mike live! Aaahh!
But the Mosaic I'm about 95% going. Hehe.
Off now, gonna continue drowning myself in Switchfoot songs. Hahah. Love em love em!
Friday, January 25, 2008
Still hyper! SWITCHFOOT rawkz!!!
So. I went to see Switchfoot last night.
Man oh man.
They were awesome! :D
I reached the venue around 5 haha. Apparently there was a meet-and-greet thingy, but only people who won the contest could go. And I DIDN'T KNOW!! I was pretty disappointed haha. But anyway.
The concert was awesome! First song they played was Oh! Gravity. I was standing on the first row, as usual, hehe. And Jerome Fontamillas and Drew Shirley are right in front of me!!!! Man, seriously... it was beyond awesome. At one point Jon took one of the cymbals, and the mic and another cymbal fell off. Haha. And he started hitting the cymbal like mad. I got it on video :D Love em! LOOOVE EM!! :P
And the last song they played was... DARE YOU TO MOVE!!! :D Jon played acoustic for the first verse. Then he said, "I'm gonna ask you guys one more time. Are you guys ready to go somewhere?" and the rest of the band came back on stage.... aahhh~~
I screamed so much, my throat hurt haha. But it was worth it.
After it was over, me and this girl I met, Pam, we thought we'd try to wait for them at the back door. Their van was there. And we did wait. And you know what.... I actually took pictures with them. Even as I'm typing this I'm grinning - it was so cool!!! I mean, I was upset becuz I couldn't do the meet-and-greet, but OMG!!!!!!!!! I GOT TO SEE THEM AT THE END OF THE CONCERT!!!!!!!!!! I shook Jon Foreman's hand, and I just blurted out, "OH my gosh, oh my gosh! I love youuu!!" hahahaha. And then I turned around, and Jerome was like right behind me, smiling and looking at me (thank goodness I didn't faint! hahah), I was like, "Oh, oh, can I please take a picture with you?" and he was like, "Of course," aaahhhh~~~!!! And he put one arm around me. Hehe. Gosh. Then after the pic I said, "Thank you so much! You were awesome! God bless!" oh man... and then I saw Drew Shirley behind, and I approached him as well and asked for a pic hahah. And he agreed. :D And I also got a pic with Chad Butler! Yeah! The only one I didn't get is Tim. Well technically I didn't have a picture with Jon either, but there is one of me, and Jon just right behind me. Heheh. Man... it's hard to believe I actually have pictures with SWITCHFOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MEEE!!! Everytime I think of that, I just start smiling like an idiot (like, right now!) hahah. Gosh. They're awesome people. So nice. So inspiring (their music and lyrics).
I just can't wait to see them again in KL!!
I love Switchfoot. Aaahh! Still hyper :P
Oh yea, while we were waiting at the back door, I checked around the corner and I saw Tim and Chad talking to some dude. Then I saw them walking into the conference room. And Jon Foreman saw me, and he waved!! I was like... oooooohhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~ hahahah. Anyway we could see into the conference room, though a bit hard. And I managed to get some pix. Hehehe. Gosh I'm still so excited. That concert was by far the best I've ever attended!!!! I dunno if I could get to meet them again in KL. I really hope so though. Maybe this time I can take pictures with the Foreman brothers, and with the whole band together. Hahah. :D :D
SWITCHFOOT ROX!!! Definitely my #1 favorite band. Hahah. :D :D
(Honestly if I don't stop grinning soon my teeth will be dry and my cheeks will go numb and stuff.... hahaha. Aaahh can't help it!!!)
Man oh man.
They were awesome! :D
I reached the venue around 5 haha. Apparently there was a meet-and-greet thingy, but only people who won the contest could go. And I DIDN'T KNOW!! I was pretty disappointed haha. But anyway.
The concert was awesome! First song they played was Oh! Gravity. I was standing on the first row, as usual, hehe. And Jerome Fontamillas and Drew Shirley are right in front of me!!!! Man, seriously... it was beyond awesome. At one point Jon took one of the cymbals, and the mic and another cymbal fell off. Haha. And he started hitting the cymbal like mad. I got it on video :D Love em! LOOOVE EM!! :P
And the last song they played was... DARE YOU TO MOVE!!! :D Jon played acoustic for the first verse. Then he said, "I'm gonna ask you guys one more time. Are you guys ready to go somewhere?" and the rest of the band came back on stage.... aahhh~~
I screamed so much, my throat hurt haha. But it was worth it.
After it was over, me and this girl I met, Pam, we thought we'd try to wait for them at the back door. Their van was there. And we did wait. And you know what.... I actually took pictures with them. Even as I'm typing this I'm grinning - it was so cool!!! I mean, I was upset becuz I couldn't do the meet-and-greet, but OMG!!!!!!!!! I GOT TO SEE THEM AT THE END OF THE CONCERT!!!!!!!!!! I shook Jon Foreman's hand, and I just blurted out, "OH my gosh, oh my gosh! I love youuu!!" hahahaha. And then I turned around, and Jerome was like right behind me, smiling and looking at me (thank goodness I didn't faint! hahah), I was like, "Oh, oh, can I please take a picture with you?" and he was like, "Of course," aaahhhh~~~!!! And he put one arm around me. Hehe. Gosh. Then after the pic I said, "Thank you so much! You were awesome! God bless!" oh man... and then I saw Drew Shirley behind, and I approached him as well and asked for a pic hahah. And he agreed. :D And I also got a pic with Chad Butler! Yeah! The only one I didn't get is Tim. Well technically I didn't have a picture with Jon either, but there is one of me, and Jon just right behind me. Heheh. Man... it's hard to believe I actually have pictures with SWITCHFOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MEEE!!! Everytime I think of that, I just start smiling like an idiot (like, right now!) hahah. Gosh. They're awesome people. So nice. So inspiring (their music and lyrics).
I just can't wait to see them again in KL!!
I love Switchfoot. Aaahh! Still hyper :P
Oh yea, while we were waiting at the back door, I checked around the corner and I saw Tim and Chad talking to some dude. Then I saw them walking into the conference room. And Jon Foreman saw me, and he waved!! I was like... oooooohhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~ hahahah. Anyway we could see into the conference room, though a bit hard. And I managed to get some pix. Hehehe. Gosh I'm still so excited. That concert was by far the best I've ever attended!!!! I dunno if I could get to meet them again in KL. I really hope so though. Maybe this time I can take pictures with the Foreman brothers, and with the whole band together. Hahah. :D :D
SWITCHFOOT ROX!!! Definitely my #1 favorite band. Hahah. :D :D
(Honestly if I don't stop grinning soon my teeth will be dry and my cheeks will go numb and stuff.... hahaha. Aaahh can't help it!!!)
Monday, January 21, 2008
of a so-called friend (continued)
Don't you ever wonder why some people are just so bloody shameless like the aforementioned Y? Hahah.
Well, I do. I mean it's like, didn't Y's parents ever tell Y anything about etiquette? Manners? HELLO? Even if the parents never did, most people would have what we call COMMON SENSE to say thank you after other people give us something, pay for us, and stuff like that. People with common sense, when they visit their friends' houses, and their friends' parents are in, these people would greet the parents. People with common sense, when they come along with you when your dad pick you up, would say something along the line, "Sorry for troubling you, Uncle, but could I get a ride to this place? Thanks," when they enter the car - not just enter the car and sit and not say anything, that's just totally disrespectful, disdainful, annoying, etc etc. (can you feel the LOVE that I'm feeling? Haha)
When me and Y and another friend go out and eat, we usually order something that we all share. We all pay equally, but guess who takes more portion of the food shared? Well if you guessed Y you're right. Again, if Y does this once in awhile, it's fine by me. But it's like, Y would take A LOT of the shared food and put on Y's plate before anybody else does anything - like most of the time if not all the time. Greedy much!??!?! There was once we 3 had dinner with my parents. And of course, Y did this. My mom saw this with her own eyes haha. Stupid greedy shameless Y.
And Y is so LEMOT! Sometimes it's so tiring.
Once Y tagged along with me and my folks to the mall, and we were at the foodcourt. My dad wanted to ask me something in private, so my mom told me, "Mel, papa mo ngomong sama kamu," [trans: Mel, dad wants to talk to you] and so I moved to my dad's side. Then my dad looked like he was about to say something, then he said, "Nanti aja deh," [trans: Later, not now]. And I wondered why. Then later on, I found out, apparently Y was leaning in to hear our convo. Hahah. WTF right. I mean, if my dad wanted to say something that everybody could hear, my mom wouldn't tell me that my dad wanted to talk to me. But anyway. I bought burger at Raffel's, or something like that, my dad ordered the same thing. Then somebody asked what Y wanted to eat, can't remember who. Anyway, in the end Y got my dad's burger, and my dad ordered something else. Get this, Y just accepted the food, then went off to the table, not even saying thanks - not to my dad, not to my mom. Not to me, but that's understandable cuz I didn't pay for the food.
Blah. Everytime I think of Y's lack of manners + lemot-ness + other stuff, makes me want to slap Y. Or something. It's just too much to take.
Anyway. One of these days somebody's gonna have to knock some sense into Y's head. That somebody might be me or my friend who also knows Y (ya elo lah nek, sapa lagi wahahaha :P). But not anytime soon cuz right now I really just can't stand Y. CAN'T, I tell you, cuz if I see Y, I would totally put on my jutek [totally unfriendly expression - prolly look like I'm about to rip someone's heart out :D] face and I would ignore Y. But of course, Y would not realize that I'd be that way cuz of Y. Y would think I'm pissed about something else, or just being moody, or just pretending to ignore Y. Y is that LEMOT! And stupid.
Nuff fer now. Any more annoyances I feel will be posted some time later. Hehe. Now I feel like going back to schleep! XD
m3Lz
Well, I do. I mean it's like, didn't Y's parents ever tell Y anything about etiquette? Manners? HELLO? Even if the parents never did, most people would have what we call COMMON SENSE to say thank you after other people give us something, pay for us, and stuff like that. People with common sense, when they visit their friends' houses, and their friends' parents are in, these people would greet the parents. People with common sense, when they come along with you when your dad pick you up, would say something along the line, "Sorry for troubling you, Uncle, but could I get a ride to this place? Thanks," when they enter the car - not just enter the car and sit and not say anything, that's just totally disrespectful, disdainful, annoying, etc etc. (can you feel the LOVE that I'm feeling? Haha)
When me and Y and another friend go out and eat, we usually order something that we all share. We all pay equally, but guess who takes more portion of the food shared? Well if you guessed Y you're right. Again, if Y does this once in awhile, it's fine by me. But it's like, Y would take A LOT of the shared food and put on Y's plate before anybody else does anything - like most of the time if not all the time. Greedy much!??!?! There was once we 3 had dinner with my parents. And of course, Y did this. My mom saw this with her own eyes haha. Stupid greedy shameless Y.
And Y is so LEMOT! Sometimes it's so tiring.
Once Y tagged along with me and my folks to the mall, and we were at the foodcourt. My dad wanted to ask me something in private, so my mom told me, "Mel, papa mo ngomong sama kamu," [trans: Mel, dad wants to talk to you] and so I moved to my dad's side. Then my dad looked like he was about to say something, then he said, "Nanti aja deh," [trans: Later, not now]. And I wondered why. Then later on, I found out, apparently Y was leaning in to hear our convo. Hahah. WTF right. I mean, if my dad wanted to say something that everybody could hear, my mom wouldn't tell me that my dad wanted to talk to me. But anyway. I bought burger at Raffel's, or something like that, my dad ordered the same thing. Then somebody asked what Y wanted to eat, can't remember who. Anyway, in the end Y got my dad's burger, and my dad ordered something else. Get this, Y just accepted the food, then went off to the table, not even saying thanks - not to my dad, not to my mom. Not to me, but that's understandable cuz I didn't pay for the food.
Blah. Everytime I think of Y's lack of manners + lemot-ness + other stuff, makes me want to slap Y. Or something. It's just too much to take.
Anyway. One of these days somebody's gonna have to knock some sense into Y's head. That somebody might be me or my friend who also knows Y (ya elo lah nek, sapa lagi wahahaha :P). But not anytime soon cuz right now I really just can't stand Y. CAN'T, I tell you, cuz if I see Y, I would totally put on my jutek [totally unfriendly expression - prolly look like I'm about to rip someone's heart out :D] face and I would ignore Y. But of course, Y would not realize that I'd be that way cuz of Y. Y would think I'm pissed about something else, or just being moody, or just pretending to ignore Y. Y is that LEMOT! And stupid.
Nuff fer now. Any more annoyances I feel will be posted some time later. Hehe. Now I feel like going back to schleep! XD
m3Lz
Friday, January 18, 2008
of a so-called friend
Have you ever had a friend who, whether that person realizes it or not, does not have proper manners? A friend who, when he/she goes out with you and your parents (well actually, more like tags along when you and your parents go out), never once offers to pay for his/her own meal? It's as if (I'm just gonna refer to the friend as a she) she thinks that it's her right to have her meals paid by your parents, or something. And yet, after your parents pay for her meal, she doesn't even thank your parents. A friend who thinks that since you're richer than her (which is not always true in some cases), it's your duty to pay for her when she's cashless. A friend who, when she owes you, will not remind you that she has what's rightfully yours, instead acts as if she forgets. But when you owe her, even if it's just such a small amount (and note that you don't usually borrow money from people, especially not from her... say, in this case she happens to pay for a busfare or something first because you didn't have small change, and you say you'll pay her later, which you definitely will because you hate owing people money), she will remind you that you owe her - within one hour of when she lent you the money. A friend who, when your dad (or mom or brother or sister) fetches you from somewhere, will come along so that she could get dropped off where she's headed to (be it her house or anywhere she needs to be), but she doesn't even say hi to your dad, no greetings whatsoever. It feels like she treats your dad like a chauffeur or something (I hate that!). A friend who, when she comes over to your house, does not even greet the owners of the house! She just walks in, not saying "Hi" to your parents. Not even acknowledging that your parents are in the house.
Those are just some of the examples.
Well, I have one of those friends. Let's call that person Y. Sometimes I feel like Y takes me for granted - though this may not be the case. What I dislike most about Y is Y's manners. Or rather, Y's lack thereof. Y doesn't seem to think that it's important to greet friends' parents. Y seems to think that since I (seem to) have more money that Y does, therefore my parents are richer than Y's, therefore when Y tags along with me and parents, it's my parents' duty to pay for Y's lunch, or dinner. It's that Y expects my parents to pay for Y - I find this so bloody annoying. And after my parents pay for the meal, Y does not even bother to say "Thank you," to my parents. Y does not even feel ashamed (or something... I'm not sure what the English word is, but we call it 'sungkan') that everytime we go out Y never has to pay for anything. Seriously, Y is like that. I mean, if it's only every once in a while, I don't mind. But this happens EVERY BLOODY TIME. There was also once when I went out with Y, with my aunt and my cousin. My aunt gave me lunch money for the both of us. Then we ordered - but what we ordered cost more than what my aunt gave me. So naturally I took out my wallet to cover the cost - while Y just stood there doing nothing. And get this, we ordered the same food and drink. Honestly, it's not that I mind paying the rest - it's that Y's attitude that really annoys me. Another time, an outing with my family and Y. My mom gave me dinner money. I said to Y, "Eh lo bayar makan ndiri ye," which is something like "You pay for your own dinner k," and Y's response was, "Enak aja lo, Mel!" which is like... I dunno what the English equivalent is. Haha. But anyway.
This has been going on for a while, and my annoyance grows more each day.
Right now, I just can't stand Y. I'm so annoyed with Y that even when I talk to Y online, I get fed up. Then what usually happens is I just ignore Y or log out. Y is hardheaded - so am I. But I will admit if I did something wrong. Y will not, instead accuses ME of doing something wrong. Argh.
Sometimes Y would ask my opinion on something, but when I voice out my opinion, Y would not even bother to consider what I say. I'm not the only one in this position, a few of my other friends were also asked for opinions on the same matter - yet in the end none of our opinions were ever considered in Y's decision making. I mean, I know it's Y's choice, but why the heck even bother asking people if you're not gonna consider them anyway??? What a waste of time and energy for those people!
Y is so dense. No matter how many times people tell Y about Y's imperfections (let's face it, none of us humans are perfect), Y does not even heed them. Y thinks we're just joking around - or something. SO stupid.
Blah. Enough ranting for now.
I know I sound like a bitch but I just need to let this out before this drives me nuts. And just so you know, I'm not the only one fed up with Y. My parents (well, my mom is, my dad is more neutral I think), and a few of my friends who also happen to be Y's friends. You know who you are haha.
Off now,
m3Lz
Those are just some of the examples.
Well, I have one of those friends. Let's call that person Y. Sometimes I feel like Y takes me for granted - though this may not be the case. What I dislike most about Y is Y's manners. Or rather, Y's lack thereof. Y doesn't seem to think that it's important to greet friends' parents. Y seems to think that since I (seem to) have more money that Y does, therefore my parents are richer than Y's, therefore when Y tags along with me and parents, it's my parents' duty to pay for Y's lunch, or dinner. It's that Y expects my parents to pay for Y - I find this so bloody annoying. And after my parents pay for the meal, Y does not even bother to say "Thank you," to my parents. Y does not even feel ashamed (or something... I'm not sure what the English word is, but we call it 'sungkan') that everytime we go out Y never has to pay for anything. Seriously, Y is like that. I mean, if it's only every once in a while, I don't mind. But this happens EVERY BLOODY TIME. There was also once when I went out with Y, with my aunt and my cousin. My aunt gave me lunch money for the both of us. Then we ordered - but what we ordered cost more than what my aunt gave me. So naturally I took out my wallet to cover the cost - while Y just stood there doing nothing. And get this, we ordered the same food and drink. Honestly, it's not that I mind paying the rest - it's that Y's attitude that really annoys me. Another time, an outing with my family and Y. My mom gave me dinner money. I said to Y, "Eh lo bayar makan ndiri ye," which is something like "You pay for your own dinner k," and Y's response was, "Enak aja lo, Mel!" which is like... I dunno what the English equivalent is. Haha. But anyway.
This has been going on for a while, and my annoyance grows more each day.
Right now, I just can't stand Y. I'm so annoyed with Y that even when I talk to Y online, I get fed up. Then what usually happens is I just ignore Y or log out. Y is hardheaded - so am I. But I will admit if I did something wrong. Y will not, instead accuses ME of doing something wrong. Argh.
Sometimes Y would ask my opinion on something, but when I voice out my opinion, Y would not even bother to consider what I say. I'm not the only one in this position, a few of my other friends were also asked for opinions on the same matter - yet in the end none of our opinions were ever considered in Y's decision making. I mean, I know it's Y's choice, but why the heck even bother asking people if you're not gonna consider them anyway??? What a waste of time and energy for those people!
Y is so dense. No matter how many times people tell Y about Y's imperfections (let's face it, none of us humans are perfect), Y does not even heed them. Y thinks we're just joking around - or something. SO stupid.
Blah. Enough ranting for now.
I know I sound like a bitch but I just need to let this out before this drives me nuts. And just so you know, I'm not the only one fed up with Y. My parents (well, my mom is, my dad is more neutral I think), and a few of my friends who also happen to be Y's friends. You know who you are haha.
Off now,
m3Lz
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